I am blogging tonight just because I need to vent a little, clear my head a little, get my thoughts out a little. And I think this drawing is a pretty good illustration of how I feel... rearing to go, but like this horse staring off into the distance, there is something off the edge of the paper that is putting fear in my heart.
Struggling with fear has become a daily project for me and I have learned a lot from that struggle. I mean, fear has always shadowed my path, but as I have been planning and goal setting and dreaming, fear has become this very real opponent who harasses me. The cool thing is that now I can actually see fear. It is not just a murky shadow. It is a paper tiger and I can actually figure out how to deal with his tactics and reveal how flimsy fear is.
I have been really industrious lately. I have been making a lot of art and I am about to make some more. I have plans to open an Etsy shop. I have plans to create a post card mailer to send out and plans to create a mailing list. But now, I am at that place where plans have to become real action. Guess what... I am making excuses.
Have you ever gotten to that place where all of your dreams are about to become footsteps on a path but then you start to second guess and even wonder if the journey is one you should take? I am there. And I am finding reasons to flounder.
Okay, so I need to get a good scanner for my art work since all of it is made with water color, pencil and paper rather than digital. I need to get a printer so I can make nice prints to sell in an Etsy shop. I need some extra cash to support this en devour. I need to make some decisions about how to sell my art, where to sell my art, all along wondering if anyone will even want to buy my art.
All of these fears are little paper tigers, roaring at me, but amounting to nothing, only having power if I give them power.
So I am going to look at this picture of this wild mustang and I am going to gather my courage and run into the wind! I am going to make this work. I have to!
Have you found it hard to get started when you think of all you need to do to make your plans happen? How have you coped with that? What did you do to get over that hump? I would love to hear from you because I am always looking for good advice. Please leave a comment and share! Thanks for stopping by.